Date: Oct 02, 2016 3:57 pm Title: Chapter 8: WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Just goes to prove the old cliche that, with friends like this, Brian & Justin don't need enemies! TAG
Date: Oct 02, 2016 3:31 pm Title: Chapter 8: WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Laughing all the way through as Michael & Lindz are going down in flames! Go Emmett! Go Daphne! Go Mel!
I really hope Ian's friend Phoebe doesn't start talking, well let's hope Justin gets out of there soon anyway.
I don't see how Michael can avoid jail time, he won't be able to pay Justin back even if Sunshine does take his store. At least he'll be reaping his rewards now from all of the Rage merchandise.
Can't wait for more!
Date: Oct 02, 2016 11:36 am Title: Chapter 8: WHAT ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
So glad to read that Deb is finally getting some truth about her dear "Baby" and his manipulations.
I don't trust Phoebe at all; she won't side by Justin if Ethan learns about Brian and Justin's meeting. I just hope, she won't be the one to tell him that.
Same for Lindsay, who is dying to get information from Mel.
Yes, Mel is right about Justin; he's very smart and that certainly is part of what attracts Brian to him, and him to Brian; of course, the looks and sexual appetite are a great part of it too.
Great chapter!!! Can't wait for the next
;-)
Date: Sep 28, 2016 8:36 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
As I wait patiently for the next update! But seriously I am really liking this. Thank you for sharing your talent with us.
Author's Response:
My pleasure Peggy! Thank you for reading it!!
HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 26, 2016 4:27 am Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
I may just try it one day, thanks. As for Michael , I would be crueler then you. I would write him at a carnival on a descending Rollercoaster and have the security bar malfunction and have him fly out but since I don't like death fics he would survive probably still pinning for Brian lol. Yeah, I know that's mean. Lol
Date: Sep 25, 2016 6:19 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Hello Chelle!
I am not a registered user, but I think you'll know who I am just fine. LOL.
I can't tell you how much I am enjoying this story. This is one of most engaging variations I have read in a long time. I don't have time to read like I would prefer, but the first chapter had me ensnared. I can't wait to see how this continues to progress. And... anything that humiliates the chin rat, Michael, and or Lindsay - count me IN. I am there!!
I am anxious to see how their 'Dirty Little Secret' progresses. I can envision such hot intense moments, especially from Brian with him never certain in these circumstances how much time they have together, or how long Justin will want to continue the arrangement. Since as he said, 'this was not like, Justin'. In time, I can see where Brian would insist Justin make a choice. Whether Brian admits it or not, he DOES do jealousy. And it's so fun when he does. Another of my personal loves in a B/J story.
Please carry on, my friend. I can't wait to read more.
Hugs,
Janet
Author's Response:
OMG!!! Thank you so much Janet! I'm so glad that you are enjoying this one. When Tag put it up on the PB link, I had to write it. As always I love to smackdown the Pain-in-the-Ass (PITA) Association every chance I get and this was the perfect opportunity, LOL
There will definitely be some intense moments as Brian finds himself cast in the role of the 'Other Man.' Next chapter will see that and POVs from the other players in this drama. Now that Brian and Justin decided to travel this particular road, it's going to be interesting to see how they end up.
Thank you again so much for reading and reviewing this!! Your support...well let's just say it means the world for me to count you among my friends!
Happy Reading and HUGS always,
~Chelle
Date: Sep 25, 2016 8:08 am Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Thank you for that great explanation. I was thinking that you were going to delete my very looking review lol. I understand Justin now. Yeah! Here is a shorter review. I really want to just push Michael off a very high bridge for knocking our Justin down and being a big part of his broken self confidence and self assurance and self esteem. I wonder why only now Emmett steps up and tells Brian about Michael. I wish they were better friends to Brian and Justin before the mess.
I was wondering about what you said about PTSD as a cause of how Justin is. What about his being almost raped by the Sap and his friends. He never told Brian and even though he fought his way out while being drugged could that be attributed to his feelings now. The fact that he put himself in that situation, he may question because he was trying to be independent and made a bad decision, that makes him feel like he can't do anything right or that he can't make good decisions. And why he didn't listen to Brian. The fact that he took some of the drugs willingly can make him blame himself. And the fact that he was almost raped must of left him with trust and loss of control and other issues. The show just ignored that whole arc and I wish they didn't. Will Brian find out about that in your story? Will that be talked about at some point?
Author's Response:
Justin and Sap's party is being addressed in another story I'm doing so I won't address it in this one. It doesn't fit the overall premise of this plot. This story is mainly dealing with Brian and Justin in regards to interference from the 'family.' It will be addressed in the other story too but not like it is here. This is Alternate Canon so I chose to move the story line up to the present. Whereas the other story is also Alternate Canon, it's timeframe is set within the scope of the show and is to be considered the 'Hiatus' period.
That's the beauty of doing rewrites! Since there is no break in time, an author can treat the lapse in storylines as gap-fillers and create a whole subplot from it. You should try your hand at writing. If there is something you wanted to see hapen in the show you can base a whole arc off of it even if it's considered a complete Alternate Universe story. KD authors are amazing and will beta your work if need asked. You should definitely give it a try!!
BTW... I completely agree with you about Michael. If we were on a cruise ship, I would be the one to probably throw him overboard and then wait until the last possible second to offer him a life raft. Cruel? Absolutely but definitely TRUE! LOL
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 25, 2016 1:05 am Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
And the 'Dirty Little Secret' part starts. lol. TAG
Author's Response:
LOL! *Evil grinning and rubbing hands*
Glad you're still enjoying this!!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Chelle
[Report This]Date: Sep 24, 2016 10:21 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Love this story
Can't wait to read more
Date: Sep 24, 2016 4:47 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Love this. By agreement they can use each other to get what they need because they know that they are there for each other.
~Lorie
[Report This]Date: Sep 24, 2016 1:06 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Hopefully the new verson of 'us' will lead to better things. Can't get over Mikey and Deb thinking Brian will drop money for Mikey to screw over Sunshine?
Author's Response:
Good Morning Phyllis!
I've always marveled that Brian was always called the narcissist or Peter Pan instead of Michael who is egocentric to the extreme. He willing to put himself into positions and simply expects that everyone around him will bail him out. Sadly, Deb expects the same thing, especially from Brian. Anything that makes Lil' Mikey unhappy must be destroyed but Heaven forbid that Michael actually has to stand up and take some responsibility for his own deceitful machinations. Michael's going to learn that he picked the wrong man to satisfy the ID portion of his brain and Deb isn't going to be able to force anyone to fix it for him.
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 24, 2016 12:37 pm Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Oh my oh my oh my...this is going to be very interesting...
Michael is an imbecile...that's all
Author's Response:
Good Morning SHINE!!!!
Yes! There is going to be some interesting happenings going on. *evil grinning and rubbing hands* Now that Justin and Brian have decided this particular road, the real 'FUN' is about to begin!!
Michael is, as always, Captain Pain-in-the-Ass.
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Chelle
Date: Sep 24, 2016 10:01 am Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
In the other chapter I felt that BrIan was being honest with him self and believing what his so called best friend was and did by manipulating his relationship with Justin and that Michael and Lindsay were the cause of the majority of their problems and probably help feed the rest. Brian realizes how it must of looked and how it made Justin feel with some of his actions. And when he finds out that Justin only got half of explanations from him or Michael and that Michael with held how Justin felt from Brian, he understands now. Brian also realizes that Justin was unhappy and ignored that, instead of asking him what was wrong, he just basically gave him to chin rat. He also came to terms that he never defended Justin with his friends and never put a stop to Michael's mantra about how Brian was "that's not Brian" ect He should of told Justin that with him its different. So now that Brian is realizing all of these revelations, he tells him self that he has to think about his feelings and doesn't have the time now to analyze them. Will he man up and face his boy and tell him that he knows that he has hurt him and talk?
In this last chapter with Justin, I can't help but think that Justin is being selfish now . Brian was selfish at times but now he is. Justin knows that he isn't happy with chin rat and loves Brian. He gets irritated with him and has his night terrors but yet he is not leaving chin rat. That I don't understand? And he wants to use Brian for sex until he gets him out of his system. It was cold to tell Brian that he wanted to use him until he gets him out of his system. Brian should of made sure that he got to finish his sentences about Justin not being treated like a whore and that he never thought of him as such. Justin knows that Brian never treated him like that, if he honestly thinks about it. He knows that Brian was different with him then others. Only they know how they were with eachother.
I know that Justin wants to feel like he is independent and self reliant and not a kept man. Which Michael reinforced those feelings in him. But he always worked and probably gave money towards the bills when he was with Brian and he took a loan for school not a hand out so why does he feel that he wasn't self Reliant? Just because he was living at the loft. He is only 19 right, what does he think that he should have a career by the time he is 20. Justin needed reassurance and validation from Brian which he didn't get, because Brian was selfish and didn't communicate when he saw Justin pulling away. They both needed help on having a relationship lol. I just don't get what Justin is thinking on how he can be any more independent, self reliant ect then he was at Brian's. He has a car, post office box but that is not going to make him feel different. He probably needs to realize that the answer is in what made him feel that way in the first place. Going back to his time with Brian and to the root of the "cause and effect" of the specific instances and then talk to eachother. How does he think that Keeping the chin rat and Brian on the side is going you help him find himself or help his "under reconstruction ". Why not just get rid of chin Rat? I guess I don't understand Justin.
And the below part I don't think I get, maybe its just me. What same Things did he mean? If your in a relationship, it is eachother that helps one another and supports eachother, it's not a job but it's what you do for eachother and usually one completes eachother. They are eachothers half?
"But most of all, I want to know me again. And the fact of the matter is that I can't have all I want from Brian, if I don't obtain those same things within myself. I can't even bring myself to ask for them, since this isn't fucking Jerry McGuire and I can't ask Brian to complete me. This is real life and that's not his job; it belongs to me and me alone. Yes two halves make one whole... except where relationships are concerned."
Maybe I put to much thought into this, sorry lol. I forgot it's fan fiction.
Author's Response:
Good Morning Toni,
First thank you for the well-thoughout review. Yes, this is fanfiction but it is also my goal to get my readers to run the emotional gamut in anything I create. This review shows that you are doing that. I write because I can't NOT write- it's a part of me. But the fact that you are all willing to take and enjoy the journey with me is such a wonderful thing. Now for the review:
I think we all tend to forget- at least those who sometimes write fanfiction- that Justin is a MAN and as such some things are just abhorrent to him. It's why I always portray him as strong, independent-minded and one with certain goals/ideals for himself. To me, my characters are human, living and breathing inside my head and therefore have motives, emotions and feelings just as we in real life would. That said, everyone is an individual and not everyone perceives or processes situations the same way. Of course I'm not going to give away the core of the plot but there are a few things going on with Justin in this story that you, as the reader, should be made aware of:
1. Justin and Brian both were exhibiting signs of PTSD during this timeframe. Justin's bashing was a shared experience even if neither one has really acknowledged that fact. In Justin's case, it changed everything from his perception of himself pre-bashing, to his ability to read people and situations of those around him post-bashing. As a result, Justin is no longer bubbly, high-strung, confident young man we had come to know. In a sense he is darker and examining himself and in his mind coming up short. It's a battle between who he was, who he is and who he wants to be. PTSD also changes certain other abilities like judgment which played a huge part in why he got involved with Ethan in the first place.
2. Piggybacking off of my perception and judgment theories, there are a few old adages that come into play. The first one being that if someone tells you something enough, you begin to believe it as fact. In this story, Michael made constant note of what Brian has done for Justin. From living with Brian to taking on Justin's tuition, Michael had plenty of ammunition to shoot Justin down emotionally and aid in destroying Justin's own self-worth. Combine that with what was going on with Brian and Justin behind closed doors and you begin to understand WHY Justin feels the way he does about being independent. Add Lindsay's passive-aggressive insults and you have Justin trying to prove them wrong. The reason that he is with Ethan- for now at least- is he needed to feel appreciated at the time. Michael's 'friendship' was contigent solely on what Justin was able to do for him- much like it is with Brian. Age had nothing to do with life goals, especially in this day and age. Do you know that there is a child as young as 12 that is a millionaire thanks to an internet-based business? Wanting to establish himself at near-20 is just another facet of Justin's character that I'm looking forward to exploring. He's an intelligent man and it will be put to good use. Is Justin being selfish? HELL YES! But not without good reasons.
3. This adage is in reference to the role Brian plays in this... The second old adage which rings true in any given situation is that you have to catch the fish before you clean them. By agreeing to Justin's terms for this reestablishment of their physical relationship, Brian will have Justin in a position (no pun intended LOL) to get some answers for himself and redefine his own ideals and idea of what he wants with Justin. It will take time but Brian is just as determined as Justin is to get what he wants...and what he wants- will ALWAYS want- is Justin. He can't do that if Justin isn't around.
4. The definition of Helpmeet is Companion, not father-figure and not puzzle piece. I'm of the opinion that if you constantly look for someone to fill the empty places inside yourself, you will always be searching for fulfillment. Justin is in that same state of mind now. In order for him to reconstruct his life, he needs to be a whole person- mind, body and spirit. It's one thing for a person to ask someone to help them; it's another thing to look for a person to save them. In a lot of ways Brian continuously rescued Justin (1) from being homeless (2) from having to give up his wants and desires by going to Dartmouth in order to save his parents from divorce and (3) from being dead and in a host of other ways that will take too long to mention here. Justin is in the place emotionally where he wants to learn how to save himself. The steps he will take to do that, might not be agreeable to everyone, but they are his choices. He has to learn to trust himself again and that is where his 'reconstructive' journey is leading him in all facets of his life.
I hope this commentary on your review helps to bring you some clarity to why Brian and Justin are the way they are in this fic. Now that they are agreeing to meet in secret, the real 'FUN' will begin. Peeping and Hiding will not be so easy in this day of modern technology but it will be awesome to watch how they get through it!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 24, 2016 8:21 am Title: Chapter 7: DIRTY LITTLE SECRET
Another dense and intense chapter! Thank you Nichelle!
There are so many things to highlight that it could seem unfair to list just some, but here it is:
- even as the sunlight has disappeared behind a six-foot-two, impeccably dressed, auburn haired and hazel-eyed cloud
- If I am to retain some sense or semblance of autonomy in this moment, I can't be that close to him.
- Whatever function I served in your world had to be according to your rules, your need for self-preservation. Looking back I can respect that, but Brian, in my world, you were my safety net, my safe haven, the only person I thought I could turn to when everything around me was going to hell in a handbasket. I've since learned that you can't be that for me.
- I reach out and draw Justin to me, running my fingers through his hair. Somehow the anger I feel in speaking to Michael right now, and inadvertently listening to Debbie's rantings in the background drain away the second I touch him.
So much left unsaid loudly or said loudly through something said to someone else.
Brian is stating that Justin is not history and that Brian is and will be defending him from now on, against anybody who comes with malevolent intentions.
Justin lets Brian know that only he knows what to do with his body and that he only trusts Brian.
I was crashed when I read "I've since learned that you can't be that for me". I hope Brian got the message and will try to change that.
Author's Response:
Good Morning Claire!
You're right in that Brian is seeing where he went wrong and is realizing that communication wasn't the only issue between them. Whereas Justin knows from experience that Brian wouldn't hurt him physically, emotionally and mentally Brian did hurt Justin. Now that is not to say that there wasn't hurt and broken trust on both sides but Brian sees that he has to restore Justin's faith in him. Standing beside Justin as he goes against Brian's best friends will go along way in making that happen!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 23, 2016 9:50 pm Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
Really chin rat? Why do you even think you could possibly control who Justin sees? Ian is already skating on thin ice as it is, he's making the impending break up even uglier than it would have been. And i'm not even going to start on Michael.
Author's Response:
LOL!!! I know Ethan has delusional tendencies much like Brian's 'best friend' counterparts. I would say that I'm sorry for the wake-up call but then I'd be lying!
Happy Reading and HUGS Tamara!
~Chelle
Date: Sep 23, 2016 6:23 pm Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
I have to say, that last part with Ethan...I have serious chills up my smpine adn the hair on the back of my neck is straight up! I am most concerned about all is going to do, try to do and/or get away with. Would he align himself with Michael adn Lindsey or are they in so much trouble that it would be more trouble for him? Hmmmm. Not really sure what he can do about Daphne. She is one hell of a strong woman.
Loved that Emmett went to the meeting. His input is vital. Brian knows that emmett will be loyal to Justin so what he says, needn't be questioned. Sadly Brian is really seeing the full workings of Michael and Lindsey's machinations. Happily they are going to be royally screwed and I can't wait to see what you do to them! lol. Wonder what Deb's reaction will be. Can go either way really.
Brian's inner thoughts were great. I'm glad he's able to look at everything in hindsite and understand where Justin's thoughts were going. Between his stoisism, Michael's influence and Justin's lack of confidence, it's no wonder Justin was in the state he was in. I'm also glad that Jen and Emmett called him on it too. He's not blameless. And the fact he allowed Michael to treat Justin the way he did, without any correction, would be aweful for Justin. It would only validate his own misgivings.
I must say....my heart was in the dumps after reading this. I so hope that B&J can settle quickly so that they can work together against those opposing them. I love that in your stories, how strong they are together. (yes...droppinghints there for my own wants, lol)
What a wonderful ride you are taking us on with this story.
Thanks for the update.
Cheers,
Elaine
Hey Elaine!!! Michael, Lindsay and Ethan are of the same mind only in different corners. All are self-serving and devious enough to try anything to gain their own 'expected' ends. How far they are willing to go is anyone's guess, but in this age of modern technology anything is possible. Deb's reaction to all of this will be coming up very soon. Brian is definitely a complex man who is just now realizing that being in the thick of the situation didn't help him see things all that clearly. Hearing Jenn and Em's take on the situation from the outside looking in is helping him to see all the little clues that he's missed and unable to deny his own culpability in the mess he and Justin are in. Mostly, Brian was always honest with himself in terms of his motives but this conversation helped him see that deflection and denial aren't always useful especially when dealing with another person. Will he take what he's learning and apply it? Only time will tell but in the meantime he received a lot of food for thought. Don't let your heart be troubled. Brian and Justin have some personal obstacles to get through as individuals before they come to any sort of resolution. And there is definitely a lot to say to each other. It may take time but then again... that's all Brian and Justin seem to have working for them right now. Happy Reading and HUGS, ~Chelle
Author's Response:
Date: Sep 23, 2016 5:15 pm Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
What a dense chapter!!!
Beautifully written, lots of information exchanged, Jennifer is perfectly described and Emmett is as delightful as serious and honest. So happy Jennifer could "read" Brian and could be straight forward. Yes, she is protecting her son, but she likes Brian and sees him for what and who is trully is.
The very long part in the restaurant is so well built, it's a pleasure to read.
Ethan is planning something evil and I hope he won't succeed, even partially. Please, crush this cockroach.
As for Michael, I hope that he will be crushed too and shamed publicly. As for Lindsay, will Brian take corrective action towards her?
Author's Response:
Hello Claire!!
Thank you for the compliment on how the restaurant scene was written. Brian, Jennifer and Emmett are such full and charismatic characters that it was a joy to show them together in a scene I would have loved to see on screen.
LOL@ crushing the cockroach! I will certainly attempt to relocate Ethan to the Island of "Mitch Be Gone" as soon as possible!
Michael and Lindsay will certainly be accounting for much, both publicly and privately. They truly miscalculated when they decided to mess with Justin.
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 23, 2016 3:06 pm Title: PROLOGUE... AT THE END...
I haven't started this story yet (yes, I try to abide by no WIP rule) any idea if this might be a super long story or an almost done story? I know stories can grow when new plots jump in, so I am just trying to find out how much longer I have to wait to read this lol
It looks SOOOOO good!!!!
Author's Response:
Hey Kathy!
I'm not really sure if it's going to be a super long epic which I seem to be known for but I can definitely tell you that it isn't almost done. There is one major plot based off of the bunny Tag gave me but a few subplots that have to be addressed. I hope that once you read it, that it will be as satisfying to you as it is for me to write it!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 23, 2016 2:04 pm Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
God Nicole! The way you write hun is so ingenius & inspired, full of intelligence, thoughtfulness & flair. I love it! I would have paid money to see that scene between Brian, Jennifer & Em played out on screen! So fabulous! More please!
Ian is so evil! He's going to sabotage Justin's jeep isn't he? And try to get rid of Daphne?!?! What balls! Good luck with that Paganini...
Michael & Lindsay are fucked! And not in a positive life affirming way...
Author's Response:
SHINE!!!!! Thank you so much for the boost to my ego! Sometimes I become a little unsure but I will look back on this and remember the faith you all place in my ability to weave a story worth reading.
I really wish that all of this had happened in the series so it's my honor to have you all reading my fanciful notions! I always thought that given the chance, Emmett and Jennifer would have called Brian on every single role he played in the temporary demise of Brian and Justin's relationship. They are both honest and have a way of seeing situations from the outside that is unique and refreshing to write. More importantly, they each have Brian and Justin's best interest at heart and place blame equally instead of picking sides.
Ethan is selfish in the extreme. He may have worked and manipulated to get Justin, but he is having a helluva time keeping him. Ironically if you take Michael's whining and clinginess and pair them with Lindsay's ability to see the end goal by trying to manipulate the events in between, you'll have a clear view of Ethan. Notice I didn't mention his level of selfishness because in order for him to be this way, it has to match those of Michael and Lindsay's in reference to Brian. And sadly, it DOES! But I doubt that he will be happy or as successful in alienating Justin from his inner circle as he believes he will be right now.
Stay Tuned!!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
[Report This]Date: Sep 23, 2016 12:55 pm Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
I see I need to review season 3. I missed most of the nuances that you caught. Love that Emmett is the one Brian goes to for varification of what Mikey's up to. Ethan is kind of like Mikey, selfish in his viewpoints. Loving this.
Author's Response:
Hey Phyllis!
So happy that you are still enjoying this! This particular arc always bothered me to the point of obsessing about what I would do differently if I ever had a chance to write it. Well, thanks to Tag and her own overactive imagination, I get to not only rewrite 'history' but to put my own spin on things that I believe could have happened had the writers had but time and inclination. I'm just so happy that all of you are willing to join me for this 'modern-day' ride through this tumultous period of Brian and Justin.
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
[Report This]Date: Sep 23, 2016 7:08 am Title: Chapter 6: LOVE CHANGES: Brian
Love that Brian's finally taking steps to find out the truth about Michael and Lindsey. That protective instinct is still there - better late than never. TAG
Hey Tag! Your bunny is working OVERTIME! I've come to the conclusion that Brian will always be in protective mode when it comes to Justin, be it near or far. I would say that it was my own fanciful notions but as I look back at the history between them, I know that it isn't. Sadly, his version of protection isn't always so overt and sometimes comes out as the harsh vestiges of reality than what it really is- case in point Chicago vs. Vermont. So glad that you are still enjoying this drama!! Happy Reading and HUGS, ~Chelle
Author's Response:
Date: Sep 20, 2016 3:04 am Title: Chapter 5: AS WE LAY: Justin
I found this story and am very glad that I have. It has so much emotion and made me feel for both Brian and Justin. My anger for Michael and Lindsay probably will never change though. I don't think anyone could write that moron in a good light, it wouldn't be believable lol.
Its nice to see that Brian and Justin both seem to know that they each screwed up and that they miss eachother.I hope Justin ends it with the fiddler soon. You just want to give them a good shake to wake them up so they can communicate their feelings.
Justin said to himself that the fiddler wasn't enough for him and he wasn't happy with him and he said that Brian wasn't enough for him. What is enough? He wanted Brian to validate his place in Brian's life even if he didn't say that he loves him. He could of said that he wanted him to stay, which is what he did tell Brian in the other chapter. And Justin wanted him to stop tricking. Will they have "the talk" about all those things? Will it take a lot Longer? Will Mikey and good old Lindsay get their just Desserts?
Do you know how many chapters this story will be?
Author's Response:
Hello Toni! Thank you for reading and commenting on this!
I agree with you about your assessment for Michael.... I could never write a completely 'Michael-friendly' fic. In fact I think most of the patrons of my work would actually start checking for the Headless Horsemen of the Apocalypse if I did, LOL That said, there is a sure-fire reason why this isn't tagged A-M or A-L but it's going to take awhile to be revealed.
Yes, Brian and Justin know that they were wrong and each had a major part in their break-up. It's going to take asking some very specific questions and facing some very hard truths about themselves before they can be put back to rights. In the meantime though, they are going to be thrown together more and more often- both in bed and out of it- so it will definitely make for some interesting reading.
I'm not sure at this time how long the story will be. It has grown exponentially from the 'one-shot' I originally had in mind to another multi-chapter journey with corners, forks in the road, some one-way streets, some lonely highways and stopping places along the way. I hope you continue to enjoy the ride!!
happy Reading and HUGS,
~Nichelle
Date: Sep 19, 2016 5:05 pm Title: Chapter 5: AS WE LAY: Justin
Wow........what a weekend for reading.
This story is so emotional. If feel for both of our boys. different emotions at different times. I can empathize with each of them. I get Justin's anger. At Brian, at Michael and Lindsey...at himeself. I get Brian's frustration, his anger and his volitile emotions. Justin has the ability to make him feel so much and he both loves and hates it. His main sourse of venting those emotions is though sex. Preferably with Justin. ;)
Hopefully Ethan will only be a blip and a very short one at that. His clingyness in just this past chapter is already annoying. How far will he go to hold onto, or least try to hold onto Justin?
these last 3 chapters were such a mix of emotions. The sex was hot, but yet....I felt a sense of melancholy within myself, knowing that nothing has been fixed between them yet. Brian's comment, "just go...you always do" broke my heart. I could hear his despondant voice clearly.
I'm curious if he will do anything about Michael and Lindsey? Will there be any immediate repercussions due to Justin's tirade? I have to say, after that big reveal, I can't blame him for feeling the way he did. Brian not standing up to those 2 and standing up for Justin must have hurt Justin terribly. It would only reinforce his own misgivings. while I don't agree with the way he went about it with Ethan, I can understand the need for some emotional empathy from him. It's obvious the lack of communication is a major flaw in their relationship. I can only hope that they are able to get around this. Perhaps Justin's tirade will help to start it off.
OMGoodness. I know you just gave us 3 beautiful chapters, but I can hardly wait for the next one...and the next one...etc. :)
Thank you soooo much!
Cheers,
Elaine
Hey Elaine! There is still a ways to go with this fic. You are right that Brian and Justin solved nothing. They will eventually get some more insight about why they fell apart but it will take time. In the meantime we know what Justin has decided but Brian is a different matter- at least in terms of their non-relationship. But there is another situation that Justin has to deal with- Michael. The fact is that Justin may not want Brian's help but he's getting it anyway...LOL In terms of Ethan: Hmm....can I just roll my eyes and suck my teeth at him now? I guess not....smh Anyway, just to give you an idea of how Ethan really is in terms of Justin I have to ask...have you ever imagined what Michael would have been like if he had actually gotten the hoped-for-relationship with Brian? Yeah, I too am making myself SICK with this scenario! I'll have to put a stop to it soon....but not too soon, LOL More Coming very soon!! Happy Reading and HUGS, ~Nichelle
Author's Response:
Date: Sep 19, 2016 12:53 am Title: Chapter 5: AS WE LAY: Justin
Thank you for getting back to me. I agree and understand everything that you said. Just one thing about the show. Yes Brian would never hurt Justin on purpose and that he would always do what he thinks is best for him with out ever consulting him or asking him, hence the Kinney Cliff. Yes he did ask Mel and Lindsay if they had see Justin at the rage party because he was looking for him for a fuck or for whatever reason. You said that it's so that Justin would look for him and find him tricking which Justin was having a problem with. I don't understand how that could of been a setup from Brian. Brian didn't know when Justin would be talking to Mel and Lindsay because the girls weren't told to go and find Justin. So how would Brian know when Justin would go to the back to find him tricking. Brian was already tricking when Justin caught him, but he could of been finished by the time Justin came. He couldn't of known what time Justin would make it to the back or what time the girls would have given the message to him. It was dumb luck. Not planned. Just Brian being Brian. What do you think on that ? Brian saw that Justin was upset, when Brian left the back room and and found Justin and took off his mask he felt bad and gave Justin a tiny smile because he knew that Justin was going to choose there and then. Brian wanted him to choose Brian but was prepared to let him go and not fight so he could be happy. But he was upset and hurt when he actually chose China Rather. What are your thoughts on that.
So that line about Justin never having the balls to correct his knowledge about not giving up on us was about him not telling Brian his feelings of what he told michael?
I forgot to tell you that please don't forget that story Lion and the Stud. I never read stories that are WIP. I usually wait for the completion and yet with your stories, I can't seem to put them down. As an added bonus you rock with anti Michael anti Lindsay. Lol
LOL! First, thank you for the compliment of my work. It's appreciated more than I can ever say! Secondly, you're going to have to read the story to find out what I (or more importantly what this version of Brian and Justin) think in terms of the entire Rage arc. Much of that entire story line was open to interpretation and all I can say is that we all may or may not view the events leading up to Justin leaving with Ethan the same exact way. It doesn't make us all wrong in our assessment but subject to speculation and innuendo. For someone like me- a writer with entirely too much imagination- it makes it easy for me to spin different scenarios and tailor-make a plot to support my theories. It's why I LOVE writing in this fandom! Happy Reading and HUGS, ~Nichelle
Author's Response:
[Report This]Date: Sep 18, 2016 11:48 pm Title: Chapter 5: AS WE LAY: Justin
'After last night, all I know is that I can't do without him' . . . Very telling! So is the fact that Justin didn't return Eyeore's I Love You! More please. TAG
Author's Response:
LOL!!! See Brian even has you calling him Eeoyre!! LMAO!
Definitely MORE coming soon!
Happy Reading and HUGS,
~Chelle