Date: Oct 08, 2018 12:09 pm Title: Chapter 13
Oh excellent a boil over with actual words and Debbie actually saying the right thing
Author's Response:
Debbie was the only one who would be able to get through to him in that moment, I think. His mind was made up, even though it wasn't really what he wanted, it was what he was going to do. She would be the only one to tell him exactly what he needed to hear.
Date: Oct 08, 2018 8:22 am Title: Chapter 3
Fave line, “ feeling grateful that we had someone to hold onto”. TAG
Author's Response:
<3
Date: Oct 08, 2018 1:06 am Title: Chapter 13
OH MY! You Forgot the: MAJOR TISSUE WARNING!
I was so happy that when Justin left it was to get Debbie. If anyone knows Brian Kinney better than himself, it's Debbie. Brian needed the hug she gave him, and he really needed the speech she gave him regarding his parents and how he saw life the wrong way. I was happy when she compared Brian to Vic, so Brian realized he would be fine in the end. He wasn't living a death sentence. And making him realize why Justin was there with him, well that was good.
Brian also needed to hear Justin's reasoning as to why he turned down Hollywood. And Brian said those three little words, and the sky didn't fall down. Brian's kind of like Ted. It's a different scenario, but you have to admit you have a problem, in order to ask for help. Brian needed to admit to himself, that he loved Justin. And to tell Justin he loved him, if for no other reason to accept the help Justin was willing to give him.
I can't believe there is only one more chapter left of this story. I am going to miss it so very much. If that's the case, maybe we won't have to hear from Michael and Lindsay again.
Thank you for writing this awesome, heartwarming story. A story of hurt, pain and love. So Very Much Love.
XOXO ~ Cathy
Author's Response:
I did give the tissue warning in the FB group...I promise! I cried when I wrote some of this chapter. I can write a lot of angst without crying, but this was not one of those times. I just love Debbie’s surrogate mother relationship to Brian, which is why I like to play with it in my writing. She sees through his BS and will tell him like it is. My main arc for this story had to do with Brian realizing he was capable of and deserving of love...so it seems like it’s a natural time to end. But we will have an eventual sequel to look forward to! Thanks to your awesome bunny.
I’m glad you’ve loved the story so much! I look forward to your thoughtful comments every chapter! <3
Date: Oct 08, 2018 12:36 am Title: Chapter 13
Finally!!!! Thank you Debbie for knocking some sense into him. Loved this chapter.
Author's Response:
Thank you! I love how it turned out too. <3 Brian + Debbie is always good in my book.
Date: Oct 07, 2018 5:49 am Title: Chapter 2
I like this version much better so far. TAG
Author's Response:
Yay! Glad you like my version better! <3
Date: Oct 07, 2018 5:31 am Title: Chapter 1
Great start... TAG
Date: Oct 07, 2018 12:35 am Title: Chapter 12
Mikey always sticks his nose in where he shouldn't. Great update. Poor Justin thrown into the middle again.
Author's Response:
Yep...but he won’t be for long. ;)
Date: Oct 06, 2018 6:09 pm Title: Chapter 12
Michael has always been so damn nosy where Brian is concerned. He believes that he actually has the RIGHT to know everything about Brian's life. Poor Brian is probably wishing he'd told Michael that he has a very contagious flu and that Michael had better keep away until further notice. And of course Michael makes it all about him "If I lose you, I don't know what I'll do..." which is just typical Michael.
Poor Justin is going to have quite a battle on his hands with Brian trying to shove him off to California. I wonder if Michael will continue to try and convince Justin to go. Maybe if Justin tells Brian he'll only go to California if Michael agrees to take over the care and feeding of Brian while he's gone. LOL! That would certainly cool Brian's attempts!
Gotta say it again... Love this fic!
*Hugs*
Deb
Author's Response:
haha, yes...yes it would! Brian would shape right up in a hurry. ;)
Date: Oct 06, 2018 4:08 am Title: Chapter 12
OH NO! Only TWO chapters left! You just killed me :(
Author's Response:
I'm sorry :( All good things must come to an end, sadly...
Date: Oct 06, 2018 3:57 am Title: Chapter 12
Fucking Michael. Fucking Brian and his damn pride. If the movie is going to be made then it can wait a couple of weeks until Brian is finished with his treatments and not feeling so wretched. Justin has to drive that point home.
Author's Response:
Yep, this is when our boys really frustrate us, just by being themselves...
Date: Oct 06, 2018 2:37 am Title: Chapter 12
Michael! UGH! Brian should have just told him he's had a very bad bout of flu. But, as soon as Brian said it, I knew what was coming, "Wait, who else knows? And why didn't you tell me?" Christ, and now he's crying. Wondering what HE will do without Brian. It's always about Michael. All about Michael's feelings, and not Brian's. I remember writing in one of my reviews to you if Mikey found out, "Why wasn't I told? I'm your Best Friend", or some such mantra. I also asked you if Michael still had a key. I just KNEW that was going to be a problem. Michael doesn't know boundaries.
Brian needs to let Justin make up his own mind and make his own decisions. Justin is an adult who can do just that. Christ! Can you imagine if Justin went to L.A.? Brian would NEVER get rid of Michael! Michael would drive him absolutely insane!
It about broke my heart with Brian's actions at the end. He pulled his knees into his chest and wrapped his arms around them, resting his forehead on his knees. He was curled up into a ball, like he’d done so many times as a child in an attempt to protect himself from the wrath of Jack Kinney.
Just Wow! That scene was so descriptive. Please don't allow Brian to push Justin away. You have the power to not let that happen. Brian needs to realize Justin's love for him, and that his wellbeing is more important than a career that might not even happen, and that it can wait. What's wrong with making Hollywood wait two weeks? The movie idea isn't going anywhere in that short a time.
Still so angry at Michael. He's probably going to go to the diner and complain about it all to Debbie, and tell her how unfair it was that Brian hadn't told him before now. BUT... that's not all that will happen. Liberty Diner... Full Of Queers. Brian's secret won't be a secret any longer. I wonder if Michael will call Lindsay, so another visit to the loft will be unavoidable. And another bout of tears he doesn't need right now.
God I love this story. Thanks for such a quick update.
XOXO ~ Cathy
Author's Response:
I always love your detailed reviews! I've had this encounter planned since the beginning of the story...and you were dead on with all of it back in that review, but I couldn't say anything. :) There are two chapters left in this story, and I think you'll be pleased with it. <3
Date: Oct 06, 2018 1:09 am Title: Chapter 12
Brian needs to stop being a martyr and understand Justin loves him. He's more important than the Rage movie.
I hope Justin can hang in there...don't give in to either Brian or Brett.
Thanks for a wonderful update.
Author's Response:
Thanks for reading and reviewing! I'm happy to hear that you're loving the story! And yes, Brian is more important, but it's hard for him to see that and accept it.
Date: Oct 05, 2018 10:05 pm Title: Chapter 12
It had to happen; Michael and his weird sense of friendship only quickens Brian's decision to force Justin out to LA. I don't think he will give Justin lots of chances to go against him.
Author's Response:
Yes, we knew Michael would only complicate things. ;) And he is. As per usual.
Date: Oct 05, 2018 4:40 pm Title: Chapter 11
Very lovely chapter, nice and relaxed. Brian and Justin both get a break from the horror of the side-effects.
Glad Emmett and Lindsay didn't notice anything different about Brian. Was a little surprised that Emmett didn't but not so with Lindsay; she's focused on her life at the moment and what she's done to her relationship with Melanie.
Really, really ,really happy that Michael wasn't at the dinner. He probably wouldn't have noticed anything wrong with Brian because he would have been focused on Justin and getting him to Hollywood to make Rage into a movie. That would not have gone over too well with Brian if he found out from Michael that Justin was putting his life on hold for him.
Bravo to Cynthia!!! She took the bull by the horns, so to speak, and showed Brian that she wouldn't back down where his health is concerned and that she and Ted could run the company until he was ready. Again, bravo!!
This is just what my heart needed.
*Hugs*
Deb
Author's Response:
I think we all needed a little break ;) Me included...haha. I think one of the hardest things about this story has been managing ALL the characters at once. I know I glossed over Emmett...but I sort of didn't want another issue for Brian. Glad this story is all you wanted it to be! Hugs!
[Report This]Date: Oct 04, 2018 5:54 pm Title: Chapter 11
Uh oh, Brian is gonna be so pissssssssssssssssed at you, Justin.
Wanna know a secret? I get so excited by these updates, but I sometimes force myself to wait a day to read them because I don't want to have to wait too long for the next chapter, which makes NO sense at all LOL. But it's like I love knowing I have a new chapter waiting for me :)
I love how gentle Debbie is in this, she truly does care about Brian... and while we did see that in the show, you show it better :D
Also, I love me a little Brian and Gus time, even if it was short lived. You can tell how happy that little boy makes him.
God, that call at the end though, Brian is gonna be so mad, like ass kicking mad. Eeeep
Author's Response:
Haha, you have way more willpower than I do or ever will have! There are certain stories I read right now, even if its 5 am and I woke up and checked my email. LOL
I love love the Debbie and Brian relationship, if y'all couldn't tell. ;) Glad you loved it too. I know some see it as OOC, but I feel like this side of her is there in the show too. At least, I see it. And we had to have a Gus appearance!
As for Brian and Justin...we shall seeeeee...soon... ;)
Date: Oct 03, 2018 6:21 pm Title: Chapter 11
Although he’d probably never say that. Brian really needs to quit with those thoughts. Learn to talk to Justin. The sky won't fall down, Mr. Kinney.
Yes Brian... You heard Lindsay correctly. She slept with a man. Just how long before Lindsay shows up not being able to take Mel's silence towards her?
Michael. Now, THAT'S a problem. Hopefully when Brian wakes up he'll think it was all a dream. But this is just going to open a whole other can of worms. He's probably on his way to the loft right now. Demanding Brian to do something because Justin is crushing his dream. Doesn't matter Michael... It won't come to fruition anyway, even if Justin goes out there.
Glad Cynthia put her foot down. Brian needs to let everything go, until this radiation crap is done. As stubborn as Brian is, 'A man needs to know when to ask for help.'
So happy you liked my Bunny idea. How that came to me by your one sentence is still a mystery to me. I've written a few Plot Bunnies, but they are usually something I've had to give some thought to, before actually writing them out. Apparently your writing has sparked something in me with this story. I'd love to see it in print. You could really make it come to life, and I know it won't be a disappointment. Not everyone can write a cancer fic as compelling and believable as you can. So thank you for even considering it. I really wasn't sure if it was kosher to plug a story, but this story does deserve recognition.
Loving this story. I was glad to see Brian enjoying a half-way normal day and went to Debbie's for dinner. I can easily see Brian getting cabin fever. He's not the type to stay at home 24/7. Thanks for the quick update, and still looking forward to reading more.
XOXO ~ Cathy
Author's Response:
Yeah, this chapter was definitely much lighter than the last...but I promise the drama is not over. The most intense chapter, in my opinion, is yet to come. I made myself cry writing part of it. So that's usually a pretty good indication. ;)
And I definitely want to write your bunny! No promises it'll be immediate, because I have some other things I want to work on first, but my brain is definitely working on it, and I'm taking notes. I'm glad that my story is coming out compelling and believable...I've put a lot of research into trying to make it as right as I can, because that's the kind of person I am. If I'm not doing that, it's not for lack of effort! LOL
I have no idea if it's kosher or not to plug a story in a plot bunny, but I really appreciate that you love my story that much. I'm honored that I inspired a plot bunny! This whole writing thing is still so surreal for me since I just got back into it in July after not doing any writing since college, 15 years ago. I started reading QAF fanfic and decided to try my hand at writing it...and now here we are, I've completed my first multichapter fanfic ever and almost done with the second.
I love hearing from readers, so I'm really glad you always comment! Thank you!
Date: Oct 03, 2018 5:02 pm Title: Chapter 11
Lucky for Brian and Justin that Michael wasn't there for the dinner at Debbie's. Lindsay must have been self-absorbed not to see how bad Brian must have been looking.
A little lightness with Gus meeting his dad.
Author's Response:
Lindsay is pretty distracted right now, yes, since her relationship is falling apart. Mel isn't on bedrest yet at this point, so Lindsay just came to get out of the house. This chapter is overall a little lighter...just some plot movement and scenes I wanted to include.
Date: Oct 02, 2018 4:05 pm Title: Chapter 10
This chapter was just... WOW! You should have given us a tissue warning before reading. The dynamic you write that is Brian and Justin is poignant. The descriptive way you write the rapid changes of emotions within Brian, would be very exhausting for Justin to deal with if he knew the extent of them. But right now, Justin is struggling to know what to do for Brian, who knows from his bashing, that Brian needs someone there for him. Someone not judging. You've done a fantastic job writing this story, as we know exactly every feeling and emotion running through Brian's mind and body during this time are.
Where is Lindsay and Gus during this time? Lindsay was usually dropping by Brian's unannounced. I hope Brian has had the locks and key codes changed on his door
When I read, “I’m going to be fine. Someday we’ll look back on all of this, and it’ll just feel like a distant memory", a plot idea struck and I entered it as Number 144 under Plot Bunnies'. It's a "What If' story. IMO, if you ever wanted to do a sequel of this phenomenal story, this would be a great continuation of your original story, set in the future.
Still loving this story... looking forward to your next update. Thank you for this longish chapter.
XOXO ~ Cathy
Author's Response:
Lindsay and Mel definitely had their own issues during this arc, which I will touch on briefly but not too much because it felt distracting to bring too much in. But Lindsay is currently occupied with that. :)
Sorry for the lack of tissue warning...there will definitely be some needed between here and the end of the story, though. So maybe just a standing tissue warning. ;)
I will definitely check out your plot bunny! Thanks for always taking the time to write out your thoughts on each chapter...I appreciate it!
[Report This]Date: Oct 01, 2018 6:06 pm Title: Chapter 10
This story gives me so many feels, I just can't deal with it. But I love it. I have said this to you on NUMEROUS occasions how much I love your writing - it's not just your style, but you write the stuff I WANT/NEED to read.
I will start with the cute, just because, Brian wearing Justin's oversized hoodie because he was cold gave me the smiles, I bet it smelt like him too and he liked that, but he'd never admit it ;)
Brian admitting he missed Justin made my heart so happy. He needed to feel the loneliness of the day before to really appreciate Justin being there for him.
Poor Brian being stuck at home for so long, I hope he doesn't start picking up a silly hobby like crochet LOL
Still, the phone call makes me nervous. LOVING THIS SO MUCH, GIRRRRRRL!
Author's Response:
I think I'm loving watching you read this story as much as I'm enjoying writing it! The "Brian wearing Justin's clothes" is a shout-out to my lovely beta. ;) There are so many thoughts Brian has but just won't say out loud...it's maddening, I know. :P
I promise he won't pick up knitting or crochet...haha.
Date: Oct 01, 2018 5:54 pm Title: Chapter 10
Well you did it! You made me cry. Such an emotional roller coaster Brian and Justin are on, trying to help without smothering, trying to accept help without screaming.
Damn I love this story!
Looking forward to the next update!
*Hugs*
Deb
Author's Response:
I seriously can't wait for you to read the rest of what I have planned! These two characters...they kill me. I love them, but they kill me.
And "Damn I love this story!" makes me so, so happy. I'm thrilled that you're so happy with what your plot bunny has grown up into. Hugs!
[Report This]Date: Oct 01, 2018 5:20 pm Title: Chapter 9
I freaking loved Cynthia's reaction to the news - and hearing how Brian helped out her and her mom made me all warm and fuzzy. It was SUCH a Brian thing to do, and to not expect anything in return. But I am so glad she is getting the chance to repay the favour. And seeing her hustle him out the door was brilliant, and stepping on his foot to shut him up... that is totally the friendship I see them having.
I feel so sorry for Brian right now, his body must be exhausted. I am glad he'll be working from home for the next two weeks. I can see him and Cynthia having many bickering moments on the phone, but more so, so it keeps her "in her place" LOL.
The phone call makes me nervous. Like will Justin get offered Hollywood and he refuses and Brian loses his shit? He needs to let Justin make his own decisions. I really hope he knows that Justin isn't just there because he feels obligated. I don't think he thinks that, he says it, but I think deep down he knows how much Justin cares.
Author's Response:
Cynthia's story about what Brian did for her was all Sandi's idea -- I loved it and I'm so glad it worked well here. I agree that it is such a good fit for the character, even in canon. It's exactly what he'd do. He wouldn't even want anything in return. The less recognition, the better.
Date: Oct 01, 2018 4:08 pm Title: Chapter 10
Terrific writing. Must be hard to write so much pain, but you did it extremely well. Have a friend who went thru this and now her husband has been diagnosed so it begins again for them.
Author's Response:
Thank you - it is intense to write, but it's also cathartic at the same time, I find. Helps you work out your own pain to get things out on paper.
I'm so sorry to hear about your friend's husband. I hope all goes as well as it can for them both.
Date: Oct 01, 2018 3:25 pm Title: Chapter 10
Whoa! Amazing chapter!!! The tears were so close. Brian is going through hell and I'm so relieved that Justin changed his schedule to be with Brian.
Author's Response:
Thank you so much <3 This was a hard-fought chapter to write, but I'm pleased with how it turned out.
Date: Sep 28, 2018 11:41 pm Title: Chapter 9
Brian is so lucky that Cynthia didn’t bust his ass for not telling her. I thought she might still when he said Ted knew before she did. LOL! Cynthia and Ted are certainly the kind of friends Brian needs in his life. He definitely doesn’t need Michael or Lindsay who would try to mother him and make all the decisions in his life.
Soooo, that’s how you get Brian to shut up; step on his foot! Cynthia knows him well! LOL!
Poor Brian! More side-affects from his treatment! And poor Justin; he’s unsure of what to do to help but doing his best.
Ohhh, now I’m worried. Who is the mysterious caller?
Looking forward to the next chapter!
*Hugs*
DebAuthor's Response:
She's mad, but she knows he's suffering enough right now -- her main concern is getting him home and keeping him there. ;)
Date: Sep 28, 2018 11:10 pm Title: Chapter 8
So sad how difficult it is for Brian to accept that Justin loves him unconditionally since he’s never experienced that before, but he is definitely trying.
The smoothie was a good idea, especially with the ginger added in along with the protein powder. Justin is definitely looking out for his partner.
It’s a good thing he was honest with the nurse and got the prescription. Even better that he’s letting Justin drive him to his appointment and work as well as picking him up at noon.
Ted is a very smart man and knows when to step back and not coddle Brian. That will insure him not losing his head!
Oh my! Brian is in trouble now that Cynthia is demanding answers!
Another great chapter!
*Hugs*
Deb