Date: Jul 23, 2018 4:31 pm Title: Chapter 3
Hi again! I know it would be painful and heartbreaking... But I can't hate Brian, I just would like to shake him and tell him to fight against his demons, to look for help and to stop destroying the second best thing (next to Gus) that happened in his life: and that's Justin!
It's so ironic: "He couldn't let Justin throw away his dream. One day Justin would hate him for it." - And that's exactly what he had done just because he didn’t recognize the real dream! How terrible sad!
I understand all of Brian's thoughts but there's no excusing - he should have let Justin choose for himself. They would have had find a way together and relationships are always hard work - you can never be sure. But I'm sure Justin would have made his way to be a famous artist anyway, next to being a great father. Again, terrible sad!
And the dream... It's obvious where the other problem lays. This are so clearly not only his thoughts from the day before but the demons from his past. Maybe he even witnessed such scenes himself. And it's interesting. He was always afraid to be like his father, now he's also afraid Justin could act like his father and he sees it from his mother's point of view. Again, how terrible sad. He can't see that Justin is not his father, they are not his parents and Justin is also not Brian. As I mentioned before, he had neither trust in Justin or in their relationship and also not in himself. And it shows also how deep his terrible childhood experiences really run and that he has never really handled this issues. Although his decision is very hard to understand, I can understand that for someone as damaged as Brian is, his decision makes sense. Terrible sad! As I said before, he needs help, but there's no one who would even tell him this... Except maybe Ted... Really looking forward to the next chapter! Very well written! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yes, to me it's incredibly sad as well :( As much as I want to hate Brian and want to be angry at him, I can't help but feel slightly sorry for him too. His own family, his own demons and expectations have messed him up so much, that he didn't think that he and Justin could survive this pregnancy, that he couldn't see what was right in front of him: That Justin wanted him and loved him and not a career in New York :(
I am glad you picked up on Brian's past being a big problem here - yes, maybe he has been the small boy at the top of the stairs himself when he was younger. It's sad that he was so scared of him and Justin turning into his parents that he couldn't trust in himself and most of all in Justin not to become them :/
I understand why so many people hate Brian and what he has done, but I have always felt more sad than angry when it comes to him, because here we have a character that has so clearly been messed up by life and just as you said: He never got the help he needed and should have gotten to work through that. Instead people allowed him to built up his walls and hide behind them.
And there lies one of my main problems on the show that I have had with Debbie: She knew Brian was beaten at home, she stitched him up, fed him and helped him, but to me that was no help. She should have reported his parents to the authorities, she should have gotten Brian out of that house as soon as she found out he was being beaten, but she didn't do that! That for me was always a reason not to see her as this loving motherly character... How could she let Brian stay in that house for years, knowing what he was going through?
But who knows? Miracles might still happen and someone might tell him to get off his ass and work through his issues! We'll see...
Thanks for your lovely comment - I really look forward to each and every one of them :)
Date: Jul 22, 2018 10:15 pm Title: Chapter 3
Wow, great chapter and it seemed to Brian that it was what for Justin.
Author's Response:
Thanks, I am glad you liked it :) More will be up soon!
Date: Jul 22, 2018 9:14 pm Title: Chapter 3
Brian is playing that scenario out in his head to justify his actions in keeping Justin out of the decision making. I think we all know that is not how it would have played out
Author's Response:
Our subconscious doesn't always work in smart ways...
Maybe we can blame Brian's lapse of judgement on pregnancy hormones? ;)
More will be up soon :)
Date: Jul 19, 2018 4:40 pm Title: Chapter 2
Hi again! Great chapter. I'll review this first because the other one for "Back for good" will take more time...
Again, knowing what will happen, this is so heartbreaking, so painful. Damn, Brian. It's so great that he even doesn't consider an abortion for one second. And he thinks about both of them being fathers. "They would have to talk about what a baby meant, they would have to agree on a solution together." Damn, what happened that he changed his mind... Why couldn't he just tell Justin... Why couldn't he have a little more trust in them... Why did he decide to exclude Justin... At the moment there is nothing to hate about him, I love how he reacts, and how he fells immediately in love with his baby, and that he immediately thinks about possible damage to the baby due to his recent alcohol consumption and questioned this.
Oh, and you already give us a few glimpses about the “best friend’s” behavior. I could really do without him.
I'm so glad that you've already published "Back for good" so that we know what'll happen. Otherwise it would be so much more painful. Warmest regards!!!
Author's Response:
I think with his history and how his parents treated him, abortion would have never been something Brian would have seriously considered. I just can't see him going down that road.
Yeah, what happened? What made him go from seeing himself and Justin as fathers to raising Luke on his own? Hmm... we'll find out soon...
Unfortunately, the best friends will be part of this story - but... we will all be able to hate them with a passion *lol*
Thanks for your great comment :)
Date: Jul 19, 2018 2:40 pm Title: Chapter 2
So, Brian was ready to inform Justin; what happened that changed this decision?
Author's Response:
Yeah, what happened? :( We'll find out soon!
Date: Jul 19, 2018 3:56 am Title: Chapter 1
Good idea to create this gap filler story!
Author's Response:
Thanks :) I hope people will like it. Or maybe they will just hate Brian even more - we'll see ;)
More will be up soon!
Date: Jul 18, 2018 9:58 pm Title: Chapter 2
Love, love, love this story. So glad you decided to this in addition to Back for Good. Great job.
Author's Response:
I am glad you like it :)
I thought certain aspects of Back for Good deserved more detail and depth and I couldn't give that in Back for Good as that story has a different focus. So here we have the Pittsburgh Years.
Maybe people will understand Brian's POV a bit better - or maybe they will only hate him more ;)
More will be up soon!
[Report This]Date: Jul 18, 2018 9:25 pm Title: Chapter 2
Well now he knows. Who does he tell first. We know it wasn't Justin and I hope it wasn't Mikey.
Author's Response:
It will be interesting to see who finds out first - probably not the person people are expecting ;)
Definitely not Michael!
More will be up soon!
Date: Jul 17, 2018 3:56 pm Title: Chapter 1
Hi! Once again I have to answer to your answer. I love it when an author answered as detailed to reviews as you do it. Takes time. So thanks!
You wrote “Hopefully that won't make people hate him even more ;)”
Now, you've made me a little bit angsty. I've thought - although I think he was sooo wrong - I've already understood Brian's motivations... Makes me angsty and curious! But I think we all have to be a little bit patient because with every chapter we get more information about what happened, what happens and how some characters behaved and will behave. So far, I love both stories because it's very well written and in my opinion, you pictured the characters very well. And although I also love happy and funny stories, I also like stories with angst, drama and pain as far as there is some kind of happy end (and so far I haven't lost hope that your story will have some kind of happy end). What I absolutely can't stand is when Brian falls deeply in love with another man. Even if I know that it's only fiction, I feel such hurt and pain, so I decided some time ago not to read these kind of stories. It's crazy I think. So, please tell me, that at least there won't be another man involved... :-) Maybe I'm wrong, but as I see and understand "your" Brian I can't imagine it. Many greetings!
Author's Response:
Well, if people take the time to leave comments, I think it's only fair that I do the same for them and reply :)
Haha, don't worry! You seem to understand my Brian really well and what I meant by that sentence was that there is a lot of hate towards Brian right now and I think it won't get any less once we see more of his decision making process and more of his motivations ;)
As for angst and drama - that's all me! Love it as long as there will be a nice resolution (happy end) at the end. And this story will have a happy ending of sorts :)
As I don't want to spoil anything, I will just say that once again your understanding of Brian is spot on. Hope that's enough answer for now ;)
Date: Jul 16, 2018 2:09 pm Title: Chapter 1
Hi! Great to read another story of yours and to get some more important informations about what happened to Brian during those five years.
Knowing that this will be their last contact, nearly broke my heart. This is so sad, because there is so much love. Damn, Brian. How could you... "Brian changed the topic and for a moment he saw Justin's eyes light up" - there we have a small answer I think. But then again, damn, how could he put work and a career over a human being and about their happiness. How could he be so wrong about Justin and about his priorities In life.
I also read all the reviews you get and I must say, you choose a very difficult topic, which heat the minds (don’t know how to say it in English). Many discussions and there are many different and some interesting point of views about it, about their characters and their behaviors. I think we have to accept that there are many ways to go through life and that this is, last but not least, your story. It's difficult, sad and heartbreaking, but nevertheless I love it! Warmest regards!
Author's Response:
Yeah, it won't be an easy story - just like Back for Good. Damn, why do I love pain and angst so much???
But we'll find out more about Brian's motivations and reasons. Hopefully that won't make people hate him even more ;)
I am glad to know that some people love the craziness I have come up with and I do appreciate your comments :D
[Report This]Date: Jul 16, 2018 1:50 am Title: Chapter 1
Now we are getting to the nitty gritty. Can't wait to find out more.
Author's Response:
At least we'll find out more about Brian's and everyone else's thought process and what happened to them during the five years of Justin's absence.
More will be up soon :)
Date: Jul 15, 2018 10:32 pm Title: Chapter 1
So.....not only is Brian deceitful, but he’s a fucking coward. There is no damn excuse for him not telling Justin when all the while Justin was concerned about his health right from the beginning. Honestly, between the original story and this one I really think I need to step back from this verse. When it started I really did hold out hope for some kind of light at the end of the tunnel for the family as a whole....but I just don’t see the plausibility in it. For me there is no amount of explaining away or getting into someone’s headspace that can make any of this right.
I think you are a very talented writer and I definitely look forward to your future works, but this verse just isn’t for me....
Author's Response:
Don't worry, I totally understand that this universe isn't for everyone and that not everyone might like the nature of it :(
I am sorry to see you go, but wish you all the best :*
Thanks for all your comments so far!
Date: Jul 15, 2018 7:43 pm Title: Chapter 1
I love that you are writing this to tell us what happened during those years. Great first chapter.
Author's Response:
While I was writing Back for Good, I realised that there were some parts of the story mentioned that deserved more depth and detail, but I couldn't give that in Back for Good, so that's how the idea for this story was born. I thought it would be interesting to follow Brian's life for five years and see how it had changed (and him as well?!?) before Justin returned to Pittsburgh.
I am glad you enjoyed the first chapter :) More will be up soon!